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Fighting Cancer - Part TWO (2)
I was saying that during the period of chemotherapy and afterwards, all your body's preferences change. Your cravings increase for certain things, like pregnant women, and you start to dislike things you used to enjoy. I remember the first day well, the lie. Why? Because I was a little scared, and I had heard that doctors insisted on drinking a large amount of water. Out of concern for myself, I asked someone to bring me some watermelon to the hospital. They didn't do anything wrong; they had taken a whole watermelon and extracted the water for me. Due to my fear of the chemicals being injected into my body, as I wanted them to leave my body, I consumed everything. May your eyes never witness a bad day like that. As soon as I returned home from the hospital and entered the house, I felt so terrible that I couldn't lie. That was the first time I felt the proximity of death. I had never felt such a condition in my life. Unfortunately, the excess watermelon juice had lowered my blood pressure, and the effects of chemotherapy were clearly evident. I didn't know what to do. On one hand, I didn't want to worry or upset my loved ones, so the best thing I could do was seek refuge in the bathroom. As soon as I entered the bathroom, I collapsed on the floor. It took about 15 minutes to regain my normal state, but from that day until now, as I'm writing this for you, whenever I hear the word watermelon, my body trembles, let alone consuming it.
Finally, that night passed. It wasn't an interesting night for me; it was like the first night of basic training in the military, full of uncertainty about what would happen. On one hand, you keep thinking about what tomorrow will bring. Even if it's the first day, I thought, "Woe to the days to come." But it wasn't as I had imagined. Of course, the days to come were harder, but the fear and anxiety of the first day were no longer there.
That night, I realized that my life had entered a new phase, and I understood that in order to stay and live, I had to fight. A battle that perhaps seemed impossible alone, but the help of others and my loved ones gave me strength.
I remember talking a lot about losing hair on the head and face, and they even had a class on the side effects of chemotherapy for me, mostly about hair. Fortunately, I shave my head, so I didn't have any problems with that. But well, I have a small beard that I haven't shaved in 15 years, and I had gotten used to it. I used to tell myself that I don't think I'll ever shave my beard so soon, but I was wrong. Exactly on the second day, when I returned from the hospital and went to wash my face, I saw a scene as if someone had put a razor to half of my beard. That's when I realized that these medications were serious, and I had to listen to my doctor's advice to drink water so that these drugs would be eliminated from my body.
Drinking water during chemotherapy is an important task, although it's easy to say. You might think, "Come on, drinking water isn't that difficult." But unfortunately, after chemotherapy, the taste in your mouth changes. To understand what I mean, just hit your tongue with a rusty piece of iron. Then you'll understand what I'm saying. Unfortunately, due to the wounds in my mouth and the bad taste, everything I consumed turned into venom. Drinking that plain water became like drinking iron water.
I don't know which day it was, but suddenly...
To be continued.
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